Something I've missed very much. I would like to thank each of you for writing and welcoming me back to my home in the internet world.

Mark, Allen, Emily's Gramma, Jose, himomdp your responses and shared greetings made my day! Jose thanks for the info about the crash pf BT1, I'm sorry it happened. (Plus it was good to see your famous purple!)

I went into lurkerdom at the BT forum before it crashed, not because I was upset or angry, but because real life was becoming overwhelming. I had been diagnosed with diabetes (which I am controlling with diet--no additional meds!) my dad, who is my rock was seriously ill, a separation after 23 years of marriage, and I didn't know if I could take care of all these life changing issues. My dad is better, my diabetes is better, and it was tough but I am better too. I am getting divorced and my ex and I are still friends and I hope to keep it that way.

About the RSD, the spread is bothering me, and it is formidable, but I'm stronger. I will kick it to the curb, or whip it so bad it won't be making its presence known. I have flares in my hand much more often and the worst part is the burning. I am on a new med, trazodone and it helps relieve some of the burning pain. It helps me through the depression of RSD as well. I am very conscious of the pitfalls and traps RSD springs upon me.

I've been introspective too. Getting to know myself and my expectations, I need to shed some pounds and improve my own self image. It is amazing to me how cruel people can be to themselves. I'm gonna stop that and work make myself a better person.

I am so glad Pat found me, it feels good to be wanted in this community. Thanks for the welcome and welcome to my family too.

Have a great day,