Dear Donna,
You had a difficult day.
Are you saying that you refused opportunity for care and treatment because of a get together w/ your mom coming up this weekend? I wasn't sure I read that.

Since you have medical insurance you might be able to get a pulmonary or other dr to refer you to physical therapy or whatever other words they use to help you work out under supervision -- like a hospital gym-type situation.
My friend with pulmonary problems was able to do Tai Chi. And she benefitted from it. An expert would know other forms of exercise that would work for you. I bring up exercise because we remind each other of this on the board. It helps with mood and with the other stuff going on in the body -- balance, flexibility, core strength, .... it connects the mind and body on an energetic level . . .

Maybe you will meet a good pulmonary doc in the ER. Did you see one this time?

Are you on meds that can cause kidney stones? Is that why they got you the ct?

You don't have to answer these questions, by the way. They are my way of chatting.

Your husband's threats to break up sound cruel. It's a type of abuse. I hope that you are seeing a counselor, or at least going to a group therapy situation (that might be cheaper).

I've already suggested that his focus on financial issues could reveal a strong underlying insecurity about something else. Money is almost never money but rather a stand in for something deeper. Not that I am an expert or anything.
I guess my point is to remember that his "stuff" is not about you. You already know that but I am reminding you in case it helps to hear it from someone else again.

In December 1995 I came down with walking pneumonia. My mother got me a yoga tape and did it with me. (There was no use explaining to her that I had walking pneumonia and difficulty doing the breathing exercises. She does not listen.)
Anyway, that was the start of my travels through yoga and my interest in searching out some Eastern traditions of health and wellness.
If you have Eastern opportunities near you, you might find them helpful.


M.