Greetings,

This is the first time Ive done anything like this. I'm 54 years old. One year and a half ago I had a lumbar spinal fusion to cure my sciatica, well it didnt! Now Im full of metal and scar tissue and nothing helps my pain. Sitting here is very painful. Ive had 6 different nerve blocks and accupuncture along with pool therapy, biofeedback etc. I take vicodin and neurontin. I worked in medical billing and finally coudnt stand sitting. Im at the end of the road and the pain management Dr is suggesting a spinal cord stimulator. Even after all Ive been through, Im terrified of it. But I cant travel, work, see a movie or read a book for any length of time. We moved here in sunny Florida and Im lonely and miserable. Im looking for a good guided meditation cd to help me, because Im depressed and starting to wig out. I see a shrink this monday because the Dr suspects Im loosing it I guess. Its like Im starting to panic. Is this normal? Cant bring myself to discuss with my husband or anyone else

Hope everyone had a happy holiday

LiZ