Woke up in the middle of the night and had an anixety attack.
Took my meds and things finally calmed down. I went to bed in a very down mood. Rembering that this coming Saturday would have been our 45th anniversary and Jan. l7th would have been hubby's birthday.

This time of the month used to be a joyest time after christmas. It was like keeping the celebration on for another month. But since his death these two months are the hardest for me.

But I am happy to say that after I woke up this morning I started to feel like something gave me a kick in the butt and said to go on and stop this pity feeling. I am, I am going to try and take each day one at a time.


The only thing is that this MS and FIBRO, HEART,LUNGS, EYES keep me from keeping that promise to myself. With the pain and all the other problems that go with it just makes me crawl into that black hole again.

Got to keep my faith going and trust that there is a good reason for this to be happening and all will be well.

Made it this far since dx 1984.

Love to all my cyper family We will make 2008 a great year.


Joyce