Why can't you let it go?
Because very simply - it hurt, it hurt to the core.
Greta, you would be a very caring and loving mother. Don't let that jerk stomp all over your feelings. He/she doesn't know you, doesn't know about MS and certainly doesn't know what it takes to be a parent....
But you do
I'm sorry I don't know what to tell you about adoption through China but I do understand waiting and worrying in the adoption process even if we did not get through the entire process.