so this will be another weekend of not knowing, and then maybe yet another week of not knowing and maybe the finding will be inconclusive

so I did think that next time I talk to the coroner, maybe I can ask him if it looks like I could have done something -

though even if the guilt is relieved to an extent, the missing will not be and will never be

I can understand all too well HighHat - I made a series of decisions too which I regret terribly

each day a battle to live with them mixed into the loss

Karolina