Thanks Mari, I have tried all the agencies, she will have nothing to do with them. I have had them come to the house, no deal. I called them, but they weren't allowed to say who called them, so my mom figured it was the hospital. They talked to me later and said she is of sound mind and unless she agrees to help at home or assited living, there is nothing I can do. I signed her up for Senior Citizens newletter on events, she says that is for old people, well she will be 75 next month. She won't even read the AARP newletter she receives, she says its all about dying, I said no look at the topics on the front page, some are very important and useful to anyone.

I do not have POA only medical POA if she cannot speak for herself. Like when she had her strokes, heart attack, seizures.

Dirk is very helpful and when one of my girlfriends come over -" Amy" she is a big help, plus my mom likes her.

I have learned to say NO, but in a nice way, then I find myself explaining away why I had to say no.

It's just I am not allowed to get sick, feel sad or depressed, that is in her mind. Taking a trip away, well her answer is I have travelled so much in my life, which is true and I should be thankful, which I am.

I just got done giving her meds, making her coffee and breakfast, she has her daily paper, I have delivered. Turned up the heat for her, I can't breathe now. I will put it down in a bit. I have beef stew going in the crock pot for dinner with rolls.

So, goes the battle. I do have some hope, at least Dirk is willing to stay here and help me out, if I let him finacially, to go back East this summer.

If I really need a daily break, well now I retreat to my room, then she will say you slept all day, which isn't true, I don't take naps anymore, unless I don't feel good. Yet my mom always sleeps in late, I am up early with my dogs and birds.

Soon I will take a daily well maybe not daily, but a trip down to the pool and get some sun and read for an hour or so. Sun really helps me, so does quiet. I am just in the dumps once again.

Nikko