Tam It sounds like you are having a really difficult time. Back in 2001 I was admitted to Columbia Presbetyrian Hospital in NYC to get me off of ALL Meds. I don't even remember what I was taking. At the time my pain had decreased significantly but I could not stop the meds. When I tried, I had major. While in NYC, they slowly took my regular meds away and replaced with methadone, then slowly off of that. I don't mean for you to be taken off meds but maybe you can do some kind of a program where they can monitor you until you find the right meds at the ribght doses. I don't know about insurance. Mine was not paid and it cost alot. I wouldn't know how to go about something like that but anything to get rid of your pain and find the right meds so you don't have those nightmares. Linda