thank you. my session went very well today. I told Dr.Moussavian my description of my deepest depression...being unattached to anything with no appreciation of anything and having a lot of psychic pain...like being in a dead body except for the pain and then asked him if he had ever heard that description before. He said no but it had to be truly painful and he could grasp the intensity of the depression. I told him I hadn't read it but was finally able to describe how it felt and maybe it would help him in understanding the deep depression of other bipolar IIs.
I was also delighted when he said he approved of my wanting to give my closest friend another beautiful gold necklace because of all she has been doing for me out of gratitude and I have been able to do nothing for her.
I was so afraid he was going to say it was a bipolar thingie.
I told him the disappointment over Carol, my former cleaning woman who I haven't heard from and who I said had deep problems. He suggested I use his cleaning woman who commutes from Philadelphia to New York. I said that would be great. He called her up and gave her my number and said that I wasn't a good house keeper. She later called me and at first wanted eighty dollars. We finally agreed on sixty five dollars. Later I looked up the railroad rates and the bus rates and I wonder if it is going to work out unless she can do two apartments the same day. He say she was very fast besides very intelligent, reliable and trustworthy. She is coming on Monday. Dr. Moussavian is such a gem. I also got a kick over listening to him on the phone. He also had another phone call and I so enjoy his style. That prompted another phone call which I told him I wouldn't mind if he made right away. He said are you sure and I said fine....talk about hero worship. He has such a way with people.
Bobby