I don't know how much more of this I can take. I am so frustrated. I wait and I wait and I wait. And then when things finally get moving, the anxiety starts. Plus, I had three different appointments cancelled on me last week. I missed one appointment two days ago that had been rescheduled from the week before and today I WAS supposed to see a new psychiatrist at a new clinic and they called and cancelled on me.

I am so upset. I've been so depressed and I waited a month and a half to get in and now it's cancelled and I can't get in for another month and a half. And yesterday, I cancelled my standing appointment with my OLD psychiatrist for Monday.

I can't go on like this for another month and a half. I'm at the end of my rope already. I don't really want to see my old doc again. What am I supposed to say to him if I decide to see him in the interim, I really don't want to see you anymore but I am so depressed what can you do for me? Why change meds if I intend to leave. But I'm feeling so bad. I broke down and cried after the office called and cancelled.

I'm on the cancellation list but the doc I want to see is on vacation. Plus my own therapist is on vacation as well. And I'm all out of Adderall. I hate complications like this. I don't know what to do, I can't think straight and I don't care anymore. I feel like giving up. Maybe, I already have. I don't know. Thanks for listening to me belly-ache.

Hope