Thank you, Farside. This is the first time I've recounted what I recall of it in an open forum. I've only been able to write about it in counseling, but can't say the words or I fear just crying so much that I'll lose myself in the puddles and sorrow and may not find my way out without a life preserver attached.

I know you all know too-darn-well how it feels and how much it hurts and I just don't know, yet, how to grow - beyond the sorrow.

But I'll learn. And, that's why I'm here.

((((( Hugs )))))

I just got a E-mail for work from my lawyer, work-related, so I should probably go read what she said . She's fantastic and has helped me with so much. I'll likely cap off the night writing her so I may fall asleep with positive thoughts in mind.

Thank you each for being here. It'd be lonely without you, and other friends - whom may read this and understand why I haven't shared as much with them. I know they know I love 'em; heck, I've told 'em .