I dont know what to do anymore... My only support system other then mom has left me... My BF... of 2 and half years... Has decided he needs to devote his time to his family because his dad is sick he has diabetes that he didnt take care of for 10 years and now he faces losing his and also his legs... I am not sure what i am going to do with out him... I cant take this pain alone... I cant do it... I really cant... I just wanna curl up in a ball and just make it be over with ... Him breaking up with me sent me straight in to a flair... I couldnt calm down at alll... and i am swollen and in pain.. and my heart huts as well.. I am sorry i guess i just need to vent... I just wanna have a job and go back to school and be a normal person... He told me he thinks i need to get a social life back but how do i do that when all my friends want me to do is go out to the bar, snowboarding, bowling things i cant do! Most of them have left me... I am breaking down.. and trying so hard not to go back in to deppression but i fear i am...

Thanks for listen I just cant take this pain any more... Not one more day!

Im sorry i just dont know who to take to about this.. My support is gone??v