How aweful for your dog and your family!

CoCo has had xrays to show what's going on is in her discs in her lower spine, but we don't know if the inflamation is due to infection. If so, antibiotics (there are three choices, she'll be on her last choice starting tomorrow) will help her. If not, it would require surgery, and besides the expense no way am I going to a dog specialist to put her through all that when she's already reached her life expectancy (standard poodle, she's over 15). If this is due to age, and not infection, then I'll put her down. I don't feel anything about the idea of putting her down, it doesn't seem real to be honest. Seeing her as she is now, the way she looks at me so for lorn, that's the hard part. Poor girl. I've lost dogs to careless vets and so on, if she dies of old age, I won't be sad about it. I'll miss her, I'll grieve, but not like I did when I lost my first dog (I got him one day before her) who was her pal. Long story short, he was only 2, the vet screwed up.

I have so many pets and critters, I have a lot of death as well as life around here. Then again, as accepting as I feel that it's her time, I don't think it will hit me until she's not here anymore...fine with me. Who needs the extra grief.

Anyhow, for now, she's being spoiled with meat dinners every night, we can't leave plates around anymore....all the things I trained her not to do, and she never did, have been reversed in only a few weeks of spoiling. And that's just fine with me of course. Dh says if she gets any more spoiled, he's going to have to start peeing in every corner of the house so she'll know it's not hers, hee hee.

If she were still 'herself', cheerful, excitable, unable to resist a tennis ball, I'd be the first to get her a wheelie thing. She's just not the same dog anymore. Well, we'll see how the new and last antiobiotics work.