DITTO to what Mari said.

Once they get you on the right combo/cocktail of meds, it's only a matter of time before you feel better.

Having a p-doc for the medications, and therapist to talk to will help too. It's important that you like your therapist too, sometimes it takes time to find the right one.

It is time to get some help, make some phone calls, get appointments. I know it's hard, but you can do it.

Nikko