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Originally Posted by Alffe
You're doing just fine using this sight dear lady.  I have experience with what you are going thru as we lost our son to suicide....18 yrs ago this January...he left an 8 year old son behind. After spending years trying to find out why he would do such an awful thing...I have accepted it as an impulsive act fueled
by drinking 1/2 bottle of brandy and not winning the lottery.
If you can find a suicide support group near you...please go to one. There was none in our town then...there is now. It sounds like you cannot talk to his family as they are in denial...not uncommon. But you need to talk about what you are feeling...and whatever you are feeling is normal! Trust me it is!
I am on vacation right now so am not "living on my computer" as I often do at home. But I check this sight at least twice a day. Please know that you are not alone and please continue to talk here.  |
Hi, you are so wonderful! Please let me know if you get this as I am unsure if I'm in the right area to type to you. I am so sorry about your son. Was he an alcoholic or was that just a one-time overdose? Is your grandson close to you?
The only thing getting me though day to day right now is the anger and resentment for what my husband has done. Literally, he threw us "all" away! I can't even begin to tell you of the last few years of my life, I'm just so glad you responded and would love to continue to communicate. I don't even know how I found this sight last night. I must have googled suicide or something, but when I found it, I just had to figure out how to get in (computer illeterate). I try not to communicate with his family because they completely shun my idea of suicide. They are even trying to petition the medical examiner to change the conclusion on the death certificate to that of "accident" instead of "undetermined" However, the clues are all over the place. I have no other family in town to help me and my friends who gave their condolences in October are back to their normal lifes. What's normal? My life came to an end more than 2 years ago and the only reason I am still here is for my little girls.
I have no insurance. My husband destroyed and financially devestated this beautiful family. Social Security only covers my bills now and leaves me nothing to live on. I owned a small business recently and was forced to close following his death and am now homebound because I can't afford childcare. My youngest will enter kindegarten in the fall and maybe at that time I can find a job or restart my company just to give me a reason to get up every morning. Until then, what kind of support groups are out there to give me someone who I can relate to?
I hope you are enjoying your vacation and thank you again for your response
