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Originally Posted by nohope
I don't know how I go here, just surfing the web. I read of several suicides and needed to talk. I am a recent widow of an acute alcoholic. Although all his family want to believe his death an accident, after 17 years marraige I knew him better than anyone and believe it to be intentional. I am left with two little girls, one of who will never remember her daddy and the other who will never forget. I am desperately trying to start a new life and even though I am on anti-depressants, I am an emotional wreck. Is there anyone out there who feels the need to talk and can listen to my pain?
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I am so sorry you are dealing with this. My 1st husband (DH) commited suicide when I was 23, 8 and a half years ago. I didn't have children but I still remember the pain and confusion it caused me.
I can't imagine how hard it is for you to go through this with smal children, I am so sorry for them also.
If you would like to talk send me a private message and I would be happy to connect with you.
Please remember that you did not have any control over this situation but you can choose where to go from here. I won't lie and say oh its easy just get over it, that wouldn't be doing you any favors.
I still think about him and there are days I play back the months leading up to it and wonder if I should have done something different, but I know deep down inside evebtually he would have done it.
I can also tell you that it will get easier as time goes by. If your daughter is having a really hard time dealing with it consider counseling for her and for you if you need it.
I wish you the best of everything from here on out.And please PM me if you want to talk more ok.