I am not sure what to say. I have been mostly depressed for almost a year. but I try to remind myself this is just a cycle. I am bipolar II. My psychiatrist has tried all sorts of drugs. Right now I am on the antidepressant Cymbalta which might be helping or maybe it is getting time for the cycle to change. You have to tell yourself that it will get better. Try to get as much stress out of your life as possible. Try not to judge yourself and beat yourself up.
don't compare yourself with other people. think of yourself as a hero carrying this awful burden. don't think of it as a punishment....keep on posting when you have the energy
Bobby