Hi smiles and welcome to neurotalk...these are wonderful forums and you'll find the mods are just great, compassionate people...real people with problems of their own. You're going to like it here. *grin

I'm sorry for the reason that brings you....the horror of suicide seems endless.
We lost our only son 18 yrs ago this month and there are still times when my anger flares at his "choice" to end it all.

You are learning that the grief process is different for everyone...it takes as long as it takes.

I can't imagin your son discovering his body like that....I'm glad you are all getting support and talking about your feelings. I can't stress enough that talking helps to heal us....it took me a long time to figure that out and to be able to talk about it. (the elephant in the room that everyone sees and ignores).

I have a library of books on suicide, have attended a suicide support group and try my best here to make some sense of a senseless act. You aren't alone and we are here to listen.