I see a big change in your attitude. Seems like you have dug deep on this one. I think you made perfect sense to me. I like the way you wrote about the cards. It's very true!
Just keep your head up and don't let anyone tell you "It's All in your Head"! Don't let any Dr's tell you that it's not possible for what you are going through, etc. Expect to have a tough road and you will be prepared for the obstacles.
Take Care Hun,

Heather