HI gizmogirl and welcome to our survivors forum. I'm so sorry to read of your mothers suicide after your efforts to help her...no one can prevent a suicide if someone is hell bent on it. And you are right about our never getting over it...we just have to "put it in prospective" so we can remember the good memories...and we all have plenty of those. Unfortunately it takes a long time to sort it out.

And nohope...you sounds like you are suffering from PTS in addition to dealing with his death. What you had to go thru for years from this man's abuse is a horror story. Are you still getting counseling? Are you taking an anti depresent? Have you located a group yet? Maybe calling the library would answer the question of whether any support group is available.

Have you read our Wonder Threads here? You have a lot of wonder about. *grin And What's on your plate will usually locate members imediate plans for the day.

Thinking about you...

Edit to slap self up the side of the head! It was right up at the top all of the time no hope...please click on any of them...


http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread238.html


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