Hi,
I'm glad you found this site. You will find plenty of people to talk to here. I don't know if I can relate to how you are feeling but I am here with an open ear to listen. Sometimes just talking helps.
Is there someone you can call, a doctor or a priest or a councelor that can offer some support or guidance?
Please know that there are people here that will listen and there is plenty of info on this site to hopefully help you.
HUGS
Tracy