Sara, I wish you had known about it too. We began at old BT and there was a wonderful man there who became my "mentor" for lack of a better word.
He fought suicidal thoughts most of his life...died of natural causes in old age but not before teaching a bunch of us new ways to redirect those thoughts.

His words (Pters) are at the top of the forum and he rescued a bunch of us...how I wish those archives were available.