Lily,

My first statement is that you are NOT at fault. The people that are doing this to you are the ones that have problems and this comes from a verbal abuser. The type of abuse that you are having to endure can be and is at times more devastating and damaging than physical abuse.

IF I understand correctly you are in this house as a last resort and you live with your husband who is one of your abusers along with another family member. Are you aware of any women's shelters in your area? Can you get in touch with Catholic Charities where you live? You may have more options than you know.

I now understand why I did the things that I did but as it has been said there is no excuse for the harm and damage that I caused.

If I can do anything and I do me anything please feel free to send me a PM.

Mike