You are the most remarkable man. I feel bad for both your girlfriend and yourself. Who knows how long she was self medicating herself and lying to you about her self administration of illegal drugs. She probably thought you, of all people, would feel sympathetic and would be desparate for company to enable herself to continue her behaivior. You are so wise. She must battle this battle alone and learn to accept her drug problem as hers alone and not make excuses for her problem. This must have been about the hardest thing you have experienced since you took responsibility for your own life. It is in our darkest hours where we show our true character, and you are a heroe in my book. I will pray for both of you. I am so glad to hear your friends from AA were there for you. They too have shown their true character and how much they have taken the 12 steps of AA into their hearts.

I will pray to Jesus to ease your pain (boy, does that sound trite, "Field of Dreams," and that the footprints in the sand will change from two sets to one during your period of healing."

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson (Zangare)

Peace to you,
Vicky