I guess I find it very distressing that there are issues in my life that are directly affected by my having TOS that I am not allowed to talk about with the only people I know who have the same problems that I do. I guess you people think that the only place sex should be talked about is on the bedroom or the porn sites.
I asked for help in a support forum, and am now walking away feeling more distressed and alone then ever before. I was just looking for one good thing in a life full of pain, lonliness and dissappointment. I won't bother anyone here anymore.