These 'days and nites' and the weather? I'm almost ready for one of those visors...
Not quite a depression, just a 'dampening' of anything good in life rite now. And I've some little things to feel GOOD about. More later, maybe...
I always, ALWAYS compare my state right now to some prior times...then I've a basis of comparison and hit myself on the head and can say "IT'S BEEN WORSE!' So I'm crabby, I'm not sleeping well...well? I've been far worse...I just don't LIKE to be THIS way!
It all makes me THINK, re-THINK, and again Re-re-THINK about where I am in my pain and where I am in this world! Hey! I've got a few things going for me?
I am 'diagnosed' of a sorts. Far Better than many, many others.
I am being treated. Far better than others.
I am still mobile, luckier than others.
I am still left with a functioning brain [tho some may quibble here] that helps me decide how to continue with what life has given me.
I am GRATEFUL for what all I do have! I no longer mourn what I've lost, but have learned to appreciate little things...I do resent that I've lost lots, but at the same time, I'm learning to learn what I still HAVE.
Life is fragile, and a gift. We have to use it to the best to really give and in the giving get back the better part of all of us.
'Patience is the art of hoping'... - j