Thanks for all your inquiries....

This is going to be more of a VENT that anything productive...
And you probably won't know what I am talking about, so forgive me in advance.

So far, I am not impressed. It was ridiculous how she threw the information at me. And she talked too fast. She kept talking about self-soothe (which I understand) and mentioning Borderline Personality Disorder and those with intention to self-harm (about being safe) and that no way applies to me. The more that kept coming into the subject matter the more upset I got. Criminy, I felt like I was half way to the psych hospital. She's talking about stuff I already know. I'm not stupid. I don't want to feel like a little kid, I want to be normal and treated normally. Everyone is so afraid of overwhelming me that I am starting to be overwhelmed because of that. Gee, I am grown person who had the wind knocked out of my sails, that's all. I REALLY DO WANT TO HAVE A LIFE!

One side note - I did stop her at one point and told her she talks too fast... and she appreciated it.

I also feel like I have been pushed into this. Everybody else seems to know what is best for me, but gee, nobody ever bothered to ask me what I think. Nobody calls me back... Grrr.. I guess about a month ago, I got so frustrated that I gave up trying. So, I let them decide for me...

I hate this, I hate this...

All I can think of to do is when I see her again tomorrow, I am going to tell her how I feel..

Hey, I figure I don't have anything to lose.

[End Vent]

~ Hope