I had a very interesting conversation with my Abnormal Psych professor about this very subject a few years ago. I brought up the fact that many sx of schizophrenia seem very neurological in nature and we spent a long time discussing the fact that so little is understood about that disorder and that there are many who believe it is actually a neurological illness. He felt that it would only be a matter of time before it gets reclassified.

There are definitely several "mental illnesses" that have no emotional disfunction component to them. They are pretty clearly brain problems, but the added psych sx seemed to make it easier to classify them as psych disorders.

A pretty common sx of MS is depression. A less common psych sx in MS is a bipolar manifestation that many neuros don't recognize. I don't know this for a fact, but I would suspect that depression wasn't recognized as a real sx of MS many years ago. If the mood disturbances in MS were the most prevalent aspect of this disease and other more physical sx were rarer, who knows???

OK, I totally hijacked this thread. The mention of schizophrenia got my attention.

Getting back to the original post, I applaud you for your courage in exploring this possibility. I don't know what to wish for you. I don't wish MS or another neurological illness on you, but I also don't hope it is some repressed trauma, either. I guess I just hope for you to have healing and peace.