I'm so glad you're back and that you're going to talk about Sam. Just hearing and saying their names is beneficial.

I completely understand about NOT talking about him for all those years...I did the same thing and it's not good for us. I was told that I didn't grieve properly....that I had prolonged the "agony" by not talking about my feelings.

And those anniversaries (including an unwanted dx) are tough to go thru.

Glad you're back....oh, I said that. *grin