Keri I'm so sorry you're having a rough time.

I despise that saying "I have MS, but MS doesn't have me"! Of course it does! I'm a realist.
Everything has just been slammed on you like a sledge hammer. It takes some time (I'm still not believing what is happening to me and it's been 9 mos). I never really thought I had MS during my years without a diagnosis.
Visit
multiplesclerosissucks.com . He has some good stuff on there.
Just know that we're all here to help ya! It really does help. I'm starting Tysabri tomorrow. I can't take Copaxone or interferons. Are you on an antidepressant? It can really help.
PM me if you need someone to talk to, anytime

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