Okay. Take a breath .

I still go out when I feel like crap. I don't drive for the most part. I don't trust my own judgement some days. I haven't worked since November; I'm on short term disability. I have broken down and bought a used scooter. I'm not thrilled about riding it around town, but I have to do something to get out. I'm only 41. I live in an area with sidewalks everywhere and I'm close to every kind of shopping you could need.

Do you live somewhere that has public transportation? I know that stinks (literally and figuratively), but you might want to look into it. Sometimes you can get discounted rates because of crappy diseases like MS. There are few perks to this illness. I would take advantage of them if I were in your shoes.

Do you have a handicap placard? If not, get one. It really helps so you don't have to walk really far and wear yourself out.

I don't know how often you can have the IV steroid treatment. Start a thread asking about it. I'm sure somebody will know! Sometimes it just takes time to get better. Give yourself a break. Don't expect so much from yourself. I've done this in the past and it only ended up making me feel worse in the end anyway.

I'm so sorry you don't have any family to help you out . Just work on one problem at a time. That's all we can do.

I hope you get the Tysabri stuff taken care of. At least you'll feel like you have a little bit of control. In my case, that's the worst part of this. Not having any control. I hate it.

Have you contacted your local chapter of the National Multiple Sclerosis Society? They have tons of information. They've helped me out on numerous occasions.

It does get better (sort of) once you've gotten over the initial shock. My thoughts are with you and we're here to help any way we can.