I've been worried about you as we'd not heard much since your surgery. I'm glad you are still kicking rocks, but not so about the pain...About that all, sure sounds as if you have been very busy trying to but a block to it all tho!
Yes, don't think that being depressed rite now is 'abnormal'. It is not! You have been thru a lot and still HURT a lot. Who wouldn't be depressed? 's good and kind person. I am pulling for you and not only hope but believe that some sort of peace with your pain will come soon.
We've survived this long, haven't we? - j

PS May YOUR valentine surprise you in some silly but small way. Those are the best.