Jane there's nothing wrong with you at all but I do understand where you're coming from. When my feelings are hurt I realize it's more to my sensitivity rather than from a deliberate slight. In reality I can only be hurt if I let myself be hurt. It all comes down to my own self-esteem which is not the best right now. But when I believe in myself no one can hurt me.

When my family died and I was alone for the first time in my life it was important for me to find just one person that understood. Many people thought they understood but they didn't. To absolutely have no one left in my family, no one I could call on the phone, no one with a family connection is a sad thing. When I finally found someone I thought who understood, she turned her back on me. But I have a good pdoc now and I wouldn't be writing this today without her and of course everyone here at NT.

Don't be so hard on yourself. You do fit in, you are not alone in your feelings.