hello
I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way.
I hope you will tell us more about yourself so that members here can offer you support and maybe help you find a new hope. We have a forum for Depression here
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum37.html
as well as a very caring board for Survivors of Suicide
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
Please keep posting....you are not alone. Many here understand these kinds of feelings.
Cheri