Zucchini,I am sorry that you have had so many challenges in your lifetime. And you still have your sweet, positive nature about you. I admire that.

I, on the other hand, when to counselling yesterday, took a whole zanax last night and still spent most of the night up and crying. It is stupid and childish, and I know that on one level, but I am too scared to really put things into the what others would call the proper perspective.

I did write out a paper of questions for the dr and anesthesiologist, but am afraid that there is also a section of things that I have to ask for...and I've never been good at asking for things. Things like no IVs after surgery, not being put to sleep without my husband being there (as you can see, sedatives do not work), and leaving the same day. I'm sure that any decent dr would get up and run if he saw me coming.

Anyway, thanks so much for your kindness and the thoughtfulness that you and others have expressed to me.

This is supposed to be laproscopic, so what's my problem?

mama