Doing ok, had my first drink last night in months and kicked back, now just waiting to see if the suicidal thoughts will come back in the following days as they have done in the past when I have drunk alchohol.

It is a bit of a test for me as I have a party coming up and would like to be part of the crowd and have a couple of drinks but I worry so doing it in combo with my medication.

Apart from that all is going my way, been on a big spending spree and bought some lovely clothes in the past couple of days. Feeling very good about myself.