Sheena,
To listen to what you are going through sounds very similar to how I was feeling 2 months ago. I was also diagnosed out of the blue. Many lesions, but I don't think as many as you. But things, symptoms, just seemed to come one after the other. I thought is was all out of the blue, but now, given a few weeks to really think about it... I'm sure this has been around for many years. This last attack that sent me to find a doctor was just more severe. I thought it would never end and that I would progressively keep getting worse. I thought my life was over. Well now, symptoms have eased up and I can think a little more clearly. I understand it better now, since my body is telling me things don't have to always stay bad. I still don't know what to expect in the future, but that seems to be the nature of the beast. So I am just enjoying what I "do" have. I just no longer take anything for granted. I do still get depressed, but I'm a little more over the shell shock. Anyway, not sure if this is of help. But I do know how you are feeling. And you are in my prayers. It is a rough row to hoe, but as others have said, please know you are not alone. We are all here for ya!!!
Best Wishes!

~a friend