i wonder if i can tell those who are going on the trip that i will most definately be there in spirit.... funds, and circumstances beyond my control will not allow me to go

i wonder what the the ENT will say about my MILs problems today.

i wonder if my brother-in-law will help take her to her dr appts when he is here next week?

i wonder why the oncologist didn't give her any meds or even talk to the family before she was released from the hosptial??? We are basically in the dark about her leukemia.

i wonder why i cant get excited about my BIL coming like everybody else is.

i wonder, no i worry about this dark feeling that i cant seem to shake.