This is easy for me, my mom, just like the old days. We had so many things that we wanted to accomplish but never had the time. I couldn't sleep last night and was going through some things and I found a cookbook she gave me two weeks before she passed away. I have it all wrapped in plastic so it doesn't get ruined. When I open it I can almost smell the food she was making. She signed it...."My dearest BJ, try to be the best cook you can be. I know you'll be a good cook honey because you had a great teacher.

I'd like my dad and my brother to be there. I have a bazillion unanswered questions for both of them.

And Princess Di, my role model.