Dear Mrs. Bear,
We forgive you -- not that you need to be forgiven.
It is normal and ok even to feel like you want to give him away. Please don't add this to your list of things to beat yourself up with.

That would be great if you lived somewhere that had a drop in center or a type of day care place where he could be safe for the day. Then you could pick him up in the afternoon aferwork

Maybe there are one or two things that you do have control over that you can cut out or make go away so that you can deal with other things a little better.

'Sorry that you are going through this.

M