Just like you, the red flags were everywhere. Despite my warning to my husband's family to keep a constant eye on him (as we were then seperated) he still succeeded in suicide.

A good pdoc is someone you can trust (it's only a loved one were dealing with here)! A good pdoc is someone you can trust to prescribe the right med and the right dosage. What the hell are they thinking that lowering his dose is going to better him mentally when he has already attempted the unforeseen! Find someone else! Someone who cares that there is another precious life out there besides their own and they will actually FOLLOW UP WITH A PHONE CALL!!! Going through 3 divorce attorneys, I felt the same way. Finding a good lawyer is like finding a good doctor "a needle in a haystack".

Get used to his routine of sleep and sleep when he does. I know your fear and it's obvious mine is too late to do anything about it now. You are doing a great job and I feel your undying love for your son. Keep up the great work!