David you know I was thinking how this has made me really appreciate the simple pleasure in life. I am happy with just being in able to do pain. I remember after months of being in bed going for lunch outside. It was such a lovely day. My whole outlook on life is different.Truly all I want is a pain free and health issue free life. Just like normal things only and no more doctors other then yearly physicals. Ok now time to wake up.I think the nerves are making me kookoo
As for pain its like when I knock myself and everything gets reved up with nerves and pain. Its like why can't that make it better or kill the bad stuff inside.