there is a God and God knows you very pizzed off -
so yell scream -ask God why? do what you need to do -
I do know by experience that God will not strike a person with a bolt of lightening for yellihg at him -otherwise
I'd be dead now -
yesiree - I really gave God hell and for some reason -
I am still alive, not always happy - not always feeling good, still have
Parkinson's disease after 15 years -
yet
I have learned patient's is spelled
patience -
and
the I dont cares become integrity...
and running away from life
became endurance...
pizzed offedness becomes perserverance?
I do not know how -except you must never ever give up
that is called real life - we have been taught too many -
BS happily ever after tales.
reality bites sometimes - but what if tomorrow is so much better -
today is tomorrow, looking at it from a span of 15 years...
love and peace,
tena
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Originally Posted by Looking4hope
NO, I mean it. I don't care anymore. I don't care if I walk this planet anymore. I don't care about nothing. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of not being heard. I'm tired of empty promises. I tired of being hurt. I tired of being me. I'm tired of people that don;t really understand.
I'm mad at God. I doubt that there is a God anymore. I don't know why he continues to let me go through this agony. I got well for this. I'm so well that the emotions are ready to explode inside of me. I'm tired of people being afraid of me because of how deeply I feel. Do I scare people away? Are they afraid because they don't know how to help? What did I do wrong? Why is it that it's always my fault? Why do I chase people I love away? What's wrong with me? Why don't I believe in myself?
Why? Why? Why?
I can't stand the pain anymore....
Where is my comfort?
Tell me where?
Please tell me...
I want to know.
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