My dh and I don't go out much because he works alot of hours and I unfortunately am a homebody.

Saturday night he wanted to go out to dinner at a new place.

We were both really looking forward to it.

Just backing up a little bit, I had been up very early this day and spent 1/2 the day at a MS program.

Anyway we get to the restaraunt sit down and order drinks.

I start feeling panicky. It was really loud with other diners talking and laughing it up. It just sounded so amplifying to me.

By the time the wonderful dinner came, I was sweating like a pig and was no longer hungry.

I kept watching John eat thinking please hurry up, I have to get out of here!

I finally told him that I was sorry but we have to leave.

I did try to explain to him how I felt but he seemed really mad. Didn't talk to me all the way home. When he finally spoke he told me he was really tired of doing things by himself.

I felt awful and appologized. There are days that I say I'm sorry at least 3-5 times.

Tell me.... Why should I be sorry???? I didn't do anything I can't help the way I feel but yet I have all these guilty feelings.

I do try to explain but I know he doesn't hear me. I really believe that he thinks I pick and choose when to feel bad!

I am at my wits ends on trying to make him understand. How do I handle this? How do I talk to him without having to apologize for things that are completely out of my control!!!

My sensory sxs seem so out of whack lately. I even have a hard time going into a crowded grocery store.

When my dh and sons wrestle I have to leave the room because the loudness of them falling or laughing freaks me out!!

Does anyone else feel this way?? Can it be fixed??