Why??? Sometimes I wish I could have a lobotomy so I would stop reliving the misery of my growing up years. I keep rehashing the same old hurts and mental torture my Mother put me through. I wish it would STOP!!! All the bad advice and things she Pushed me into that Ruined my life. I am living now the results of all her meddeling and manipulation. How can I ever find any Peace?? I don't want to keep thinking about all this stuff. I have been in councelling on and off all my life but enough is ENOUGH!! I don't want to think about this anymore nevermind TALK about all of it again so some other person understands where I'm coming from. I just want to forget about ALL of it and move forward but I seem to be held back by it all.