I just took a shower and all the while I was thinking about the chain reaction of events in my life that all stemmed from what my Mother did. My life would or could have been SO much better if she hadn't done what she did. and me being just a kid I went along with it. My own daughter is just like her and fought me tooth and nail about Everything. She took off from me when she was 18 and maybe that is what I should have done with my mother, just got as far away from her as I could but things didn't work out that way. I got Trapped in something and got stuck there. I didn't have enough sense of self to have a Self preservation Mode to go into. I just got trampled. I HATED my life. Sometimes I actually do think Why was I ever put on this Earth. I try to be positive but I think anyone who is Normal would be feeling this very same way if my life had happened to them.