It is hard when things are in transition, especially. We are waiting to see our new "norm" and that can be scary.

Every time the disease advances, I do have to go through the grieving process again. I eventually come to the "acceptance" stage (so far anyway), but I have to go through all the emotions each time again to get there.

When it gets to the point that I can't accept my life for what it is, I guess I will be looking for a new drug (anti-depressant) that does what it should. I've had to use them a few times along the way, but once I am ok with my losses again, I go off (it's not easy to withdraw though either!).

I hope you are either feeling better or are able to come to terms with your limitations in the near future. The "limbo" emotional state you're probably in right now is difficult.

Cherie