Thank you everyone, I'm feeling better today. It was like a slap in the face to get this DX and it just toke a little time to sink in.
This isn't awful and I'm not dyeing from it.
I just need to work on getting my back and neck a little better so I don't have the nerve pain 24/7 and the leg numbness.
Oh I wasn't crazy, the L'Hermitte's that I had been having is being caused by my neck problem.