It is difficult Cybil...I've often said it's a real conversation stopper even in the chat rooms. When someone asks me which forums I frequent I always preface the response with "you'll be sorry you asked me".

It took me years to be able to talk about our son's suicide...since I couldn't talk about his life I also couldn't talk about his death. I've been told that I didn't grieve properly..that I was just stuck in an awful place.

I finally got to the place (with a lot of help from some cyber friends) that I could face that "monster" and now some accuse me of never shuting up about it.