Thank you Cybil. I found myself walking around the cemetary where Michael is buried with a loaded gun in my hand...wanting to join him. When I told my husband, he got rid of all the guns in the house. This was years ago..Michael killed himself in Jan.90.

It's easy now for me to talk about it because I finally accepted it. Our family will never be the same but we can talk about him now with wonderful memories we share.

And talking about what we are feeling is what this forum is all about. We aren't afraid to talk about "IT".....talking heals us. (((Cybil)))